He was really adorable and fluffy and red. I really wanted to cuddle him.
I know I've been gone for some time, thanks for the notes, emails and all, I know I suddenly pulled a vanishing act but I think it was for the better.
This is not a "come back" photo but rather the only photograph I've taken that I really like so far because when the subject is so adorable nothing can really go wrong. (I do really dislike the tree at the top corner but it was unavoidable
When I shot this image on the 28th of September it was the first time I picked up my camera after around ... 6 - 7 months (might have gotten it wrong)? I don't know why, I had a sudden shut down and I did not want to take any photographs or see any images I had previously taken, I became nervous because thinking about photography or photo manipulation made me think about my project, which made me think about my grades (which at that point of time seemed to be pretty much in the drain, some of you might know I failed my critique a week before my assessment). It turned out that I did not fail my assessment and I did well. It was graded by another group of lecturers and they really liked it conceptually and aesthetically but I still felt that I was not good enough. I looked at my whole body of work (both for school and personal) and everything looked bad, I felt sick and I stopped taking photographs because the thought of it made me afraid that I would disappoint myself again.
So... I started doing something else I really enjoyed which was drawing, it really did help and was therapeutic. It kept my mind off the issues that were bothering me and I was still doing something within the realm of "Art". I started to analyze my technical mistakes and I've been trying very hard to perfect it but drawing like photo manipulation will never be perfect, there's always room to improve.
I think I should really thank people here for the support they've give, the compliments, the constructive feedback, the care and concern that they've shown, it's quite amazing really, most people I know in reality wouldn't even bother that much but some of you do
It really makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside when I read your messages.
I do hope to feel the drive to start taking photographs again, soon, it's something I really enjoyed and my passion for it will definitely rekindle, it was never snuffed out I am just in a strange place right now but I hope to return someday.